Torn

Geez. Ok. So I think I am officially feeling the lowest I have in forever. I have so much and yet I can't shake this stupid feeling of having so little. I am being ridiculous...I know that...and yet I am not doing anything about it. I have so many choices to make right now but I am so worried I will make the wrong decisions. One big one in particular. I have been waiting for my entire life for this...something...and I am second thinking it for some lame reason. I simply don't know what to do...I have never been so torn. Like I know what I want but I don't know if I'm ready for it. So yeah...work sucked tonight because I couldn't think about anything else other than my own sorry self. Geez. Hopefully tomorrow is better.