Day 11

Day 11 - Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.

1) Hoedown Throwdown-- Miley Cyrus (haha. this would be the first that comes on)
2) Take It Off -- Kesha
3) If Only You Knew-- Shinedown
4) Pretty Boy Swag-- Soulja Boy
5) Vanilla Twilight-- Owl City
6) Dear Agony-- Breaking Benjamin
7) Hot Tottie-- Usher
8) Hot-- 3OH3!
9) Jar of Hearts-- Christina Perri
10) Naughty Girl-- Beyonce

Day 10

Day 10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss.

So technically today is tomorrow so I'm just going to do this one now because I don't know if I'm going to be able to blog tomorrow.

I will start with my first kiss. Ummm....it sort of sucked. I was 16 and it was this guy I worked with at the movie theater. Neither of us knew what the heck was going on and yeah it sucked. Haha.

My first love (my first kiss's cousin haha) was Jake. I don't know what to say exactly. I was young (even if it was only a little over a year ago) and stupid. I really did love him at the time but it was definitely the most pointless things I've ever done. My parents didn't like him, his parents didn't like me, and it was a lost cause from the start. We were both WAY too immature for the relationship we were trying to have and plus he kind of ended up being a...well...I have a lot of words for him. Looking back I have NO idea why I held onto him for so long...I think it's because I liked the fact he would have done anything to be with me just like I would for him. And I honestly think that stemmed from the fact that we were rebelling against our parents and it felt cool. So yeah...

Day 9

Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like.

Isn't this kinda like the other question about my future? Oh well. Umm...I want my future to be awesome. And I want to be a better person. Yep. Sounds cheesy but it's legit.

****I don't know how many years it's going to take for me to let the little things go.
****I don't know when I'm going to get to the point where I can breathe ten times deeply like my therapist says I should do every time I get mad (instead of flipping out and snapping at whoever is around me).
****I certainly don't know how long it's going to take for me to not be so insecure.

I figure that when I can figure out how to achieve all that ^^^, my future has the potential of being great.

Venting time

Screw McDonalds. UGH! Let's talk about the last 2 years. I dedicated my life to that place for too long and I'm done. From today forward, it is nothing more to me than just my place of TEMPORARY employment. As soon as I can, I'm out. I have called in like 3 times in the last 2 years and if I can't make it, I find someone to cover for me. I go in any and every time they need me as long as I wouldn't be getting over time. I have had open availability up until recently so they could schedule me any time they needed me. I have worked harder than anyone else there to prove myself. And what do I get in return? Oh NOTHING!!! Until recently, McDs was my everything. I know it sounds weird...but it was what I'm good at and it was what I wanted to do. I should have known when it took me A WHOLE YEAR to become a crew trainer, that nothing was going to get better. And now...6 months after I was supposed to be a manager, I'm pissed. Every other person in my zone class was a manager within weeks of finishing the class. Why is it that the only people who weren't promoted were all from Mid Rivers? One quit because she realized she could do better, one is probably not going to be there much longer, and then there's me.- who has held on to the hope that maybe things will get better. But I finally came to the conclusion that it's not. I've been told I'm valuable and that I'm an important asset to the place, but that's BS. If I was that important, I would be a manager by now. Explain that one to me! Psh. I have dedicated WAY TOO MUCH OF MYSELF TO THAT PLACE TO HAVE GOTTEN NOTHING IN RETURN! I even quit Family Fun Night (which was a HUGE part in why I loved it soo much) and now that I know I'm never going to be a manager, I want to do Family Fun Night again.

Day 8

Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

I don't really know. I mean, I've had a lot of really good things happen in my life that have made me really happy, but I don't know. Maybe it's just because I'm in such a bad mood right now. Or maybe it's because every time I have been really satisfied with life, something has happened to screw it up.

Day 7

Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

I get an easy day today. Cuzz I know I'm an Aries...but I don't know what it means haha

Day 6

Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.

1) I love pink
2) My boyfriend is Jeremiah and I love him a lot :)
3) Every time I go to bed, I get this image in my head from Sixth Sense where this girl reaches out from under the bed and grabs Hailey Joel Osment's leg...so I have to get a running start to jump on my bed...
4) I'm a pickier eater than most 5 year olds...
5) Cheesecake is my favorite dessert :)
6) OREO is my favorite kind of cheesecake
7) I desperately need a lap top
8) McDs is where I workkk
9) My dog Amigo is like my body guard lol. I don't even sleep well if he's not with me
10) I am in love with shopping...but it doesn't get along well with my McDonalds pay check.
11) Winter is my least favorite time of the year. I hate cold weather. I hate snow. With a passion.
12) I hate math. Like hard core. And I suck at it
13) Short texts annoy the crap out of me. "lol" "ok" "ya" don't work with me
14) My favorite number is 24
15) I wish my extended family got along better and weren't so...mmhmm
16) Our basement scares me. And I sleep in the basement.
17) As much as I seem to piss people off, I really hold back a lot. Psh. I speak my mind very little...
18) I watch Disney Channel. So what?
19) I danced for over 10 years, and one of my biggest regrets is quitting
20) I get really emotional when I watch dancing. Mainly just ballet. Not like sad or whatever I just get really into it and really feel the movements and music
21) I'm a flirt. I don't mean to be at all but it's gotten me into a LOT of trouble. I'm just really friendly and outgoing lol
22) My favorite person in the world is Brittanie Boado. She has become one of my best friends and I have more fun with her than anyone. And it's nice to be able to talk to someone about anything and them do the same :)
23) I hate that I used to be a size 6 and now I'm...well...not that lol. I want to lose 15 or so pounds sooo bad but working at McD's doesnt help with that too much.
24) I have to have popcorn when I go see a movie at the theater. Or something...even just candy. It's not the same without.
25) I've never seen the Exorcist but it scares me still...
26) I crave cheese pizza a lot...like right now...
27) Facebook creeping is a hobby of mine
28) I hate Cricket
29) I hate the military.....not the military in general but I don't like people i know being in it
30) My mom is making me get off the computer now...see why I need my own lap top?

Day 5

Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.

Another iffy subject. Anyone who really knows me knows that I've struggled with bein bi-polar and depression and stuff. So not going to lie, this hasn't been a totally uncommon thing for me in the past. I've absolutely never thought about doing it for real though. And it's been a really long time since the thought has even crossed my mind.

Stressssssedddd

I've liked this whole "Days" thing because it is making me write every day (or almost every day lol), but I haven't written a whole lot besides that. Psh. Life has been kinda crazy lately. Jeremiah got his new job working 60 hours a week 6 days a week and it's taking a LOT of adjusting for me. I went from seeing him almost every day for long periods of time, to 3 hours this past week all together. I don't even hardly talk to him cuzz he can't text at ALL with this job. Not going to lie, it's been really hard. Thursday I had a slight mental breakdown. All day I was stressed and didn't want things to change and yeah basically got myself all worked up over nothing. However, as much as I hate not seeing him much, it has made the time we have spent together even more special.
Even besides that though I have been real stressed. Work makes me crazy, my car is going to die any day now, school starts next month, I've been so stressed that it's made me fight with my fam, and I have to do my taxes soon and for some reason that stresses me out. Oh and I just found out that I'm an idiot and didn't get my car's title switched to my name and so that's going to be a big hassle to fix that. Blah.
On the plus side, I really am excited about college. That is as long as my parents don't make me move into a dorm. And, I've gotten to spend some time with one of my best friends, Ashley, so that's good. I've also been able to hang out with some other people more lately (Brittanie and Stephen) and that has been a great time to say the least. I also got my GED results back and I kinda rocked it. Oh...and I might be kinda excited about something I'm hoping is going to happen soon...but we will see :)
I think I'm just going to go to bed now. Tomorrow starts a new week and I'm hoping to goodness that it's going to be a better week than this past one. Guess it all depends on my attitude.

Day 4

Day 04 - Your views on religion.

This is a good question. But really knowing God isn't about a religion, it's about a relationship. Yeah, there are certain things that I believe that perhaps say I'm a Baptist, but there are also things I don't agree with, so I hate saying I'm a specific religion. I'm not going to say I think all Catholics, Lutherans, or Methodists are going to go to hell because they don't believe everything I believe, because as I said before, it isn't about a religion. It's about the relationship you have with Christ. As to my relationship with Him? It's been strained for quite a while. I love God with all I am, but I spend very little time with Him if any at all. Many times over the last several weeks I have come across the Bible verse that says you are either hot or cold and God spits out the lukewarm...and so I'm trying to NOT be lukewarm. It's a work in process. I have gotten so used to NOT praying, reading my Bible, and talking about God, that it's almost a foreign language at this point. But I'm working on it...pray for me :)

Day 3

Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.

This is a touchy subject for me. Drugs are obviously a no no in my opinion. For anyone. Alcohol is different though. I grew up in a home that was totally 100% against it, but honestly it's really a personal decision on whether you drink or not. I'm not going to judge anyone either way. However, I've seen the use of alcohol ruin lives and so by no means do I think going and getting wasted all the time is okay. But really I don't think there is much of a problem having some wine for dinner or a Smirnoff while just hanging around the house. Just be responsible. And don't drink around people you can't trust or you don't know very well.

Day 2

Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.

In ten years I will be 28. I want to be married (Jeremiah lol), living in a cute little house (preferably around here), have an amazing job (Boeing?), have a nice car (Mustang? Pink? Yes.), maybe have a kid. Yep. That's where I want to be. And if everything goes according to plan, that's exactly what will happen :)

Day 1

Day 01 - Your current relationship status: In a relationship

Jeremiah Barnes: my best friend and person I want to spend the rest of my life with. We have been through so much and sometimes I can't believe we have made it this far. We argue about the stupidest stuff sometimes (I make him mad when I text him too much and he makes me mad when he doesn't call) but at the end of the day, there is no one I would rather be with; no one I would rather cuddle with while watching a chick flick, no one I would rather see smile, and no one I would rather kiss. I know for a fact that I am NOT the easiest person to be in a relationship with, and it amazes me how he handles everything I throw at him with such love. I complain an awful lot about what he doesn't do and what I wish he would do, but really I am the luckiest girl alive. Nobody (besides my family lol) has ever loved me like he does and nobody has ever done so much to be with me. He is truly the most amazing guy I have ever met and I look forward to every second I get to spend with him until forever <3

Day 1

I stole this off my friend Grace's wall, who stole it from a friend of her's....

Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 04 - Your views on religion.
Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.
Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like.
Day 10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss.
Day 11 - Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
Day 12 - Bullet your whole day.
Day 13 - Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
Day 14 - Your earliest memory.
Day 15 - Your favorite tumblrs.
Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music.
Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.
Day 18 - Your beliefs.
Day 19 - Disrespecting your parents.
Day 20 - How important you think education is.
Day 21 - One of your favorite shows.
Day 22 - How have you changed in the past 2 years?
Day 23 - Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.
Day 24 - Your favorite movie and what it’s about.
Day 25 - Someone who fascinates you and why.
Day 26 - What kind of person attracts you.
Day 27 - A problem that you have had.
Day 28 - Something that you miss.
Day 29 - Goals for the next 30 days.
Day 30 - Your highs and lows of this month.