Ma'am...

I had to close lobby tonight at work. I was totally ok with it though; as long as I don't have to close with HIM my life is alright. Anyway, as I was cleaning play place, there were a couple families still in there playing with their kids. There was one little group, however, that for some reason just stuck out to me as soon as I walked in: a lady (probably in her twenties), a man (a little older than her and covered in tattoos), and the cutest 3 year old little girl I have ever seen in my life. It was just really adorable watching this big, tough, tattooed man run around and play with this little girl. Anyway...so this guy sits down with the lady at their table as I'm cleaning around them, but he looks at me and says "Ma'am, I just want to tell you how incredible this woman is," he paused and grabbed the lady's hand," I mean really, every time I see her smile it makes me realize how much my life is worth living. I love her more than life itself, though, and I want the whole world to know how much this lady means to me." He went on and told me about how they met, how long they had been dating, and how he wants to marry her more than anything. The whole time the girl was giggling and blushing and trying to get him to stop. But I didn't want him to stop. It was so encouraging for me to listen to a guy talk about his girlfriend like that...not just to her, but to some complete stranger.

I dunno. They probably didn't even realize how hopeful just listening to him made me. It wasn't until tonight that I realized that there really are good guys out there; guys who make their women feel loved, simply because they love them and want everyone in the world to know. I have yet to be with someone who I felt loved me like that...or at least cared like that. The girl blushed and acted all embarrassed, but I just wanted to tell her how lucky she was.

Sigh. Someday :)

Not a Screw Up

Hi, my name is Katie Glenn and I am NOT a screw up. But, I screw up a heck of a ton it feels like. I just want to be happy...for reals. Why can't being with Jeremiah and having my family around work? Like, together? It's whatever though. Nothing I can do. All I know is that I went to him hoping that we could pretend everything was ok. I knew exactly how it would happen ahead of time...and even though I knew it was stupid....I tried. For a little while, it was as if nothing changed and I wouldn't trade that for anything. Sorry, but I wouldn't. But then I wake up and realize nothing had changed. He still broke my heart, he hasn't changed, I still can't be with him, and my family would never accept him back.

Ok. Move the heck on, Katie.

Why is this so hard? I have so much going for me, and I am letting one person hold me back. I know I shouldn't want so bad to be with him but I guess when you have spent over a year with someone, it's harder than just saying so.

Backkk :)

Hey look! I'm blogging again! Yay me :). This week has been crazy and I dunno I just felt like writing. I am ok for any of you who are reading this because you know I usually only blog when I'm upset hehe. College is going great; I love it a lot even if I have to get up real early. I think I've gotten more sleep combined this week than I used to in a night...but it's whatever. I wouldn't trade it for the world.

Stop. Pause. As I sit here and type, all I can think about is my keyboarding teacher (Mrs. Springer) standing over me and telling me to use the right fingers for each key...yeah.

Anyway. Jeremiah and I broke up last week. I wish I would have listened to what everyone was saying before about how we just weren't right for each other. I mean, I don't regret the past year but it still sucks that I fell for the whole "I wanna marry you" thing again. We both wanted it to work but it was obvious we weren't meant to be. I'm sad...don't get me wrong. I DO love him and he will always have a special place in my heart, but I can only hope that he will find someone who will meet his needs and make him feel loved in a way I could not. Same with me though for real.

My friends have been amazing the last week. Oh my. Lauren Auchley has gone above and beyond I feel like any one person should to be there for me and I love her so much for that :). Brittanie, Ashley, Grace, Ashlyn, Emily R, Spencer, Matt, Justin, idk everyone has just been amazing. I also have my family whom I love like crazy :) they have been amazing too.

Otay. I'm gonna go for now...but I promise I will write again soon :) everything is going great and I'm sure I will have more to say soon here.